winter break & such

"For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning." 

-- T.S. Eliot

My interpretation of the quote above is this- Each year we change, what was said and done last year is in the past. The past belongs in the past and we must wait to see what the future brings. Accepting that the past is over brings about a new path with new choices. 

My break...

Excluding what seems to always be a part of my life, work, and procrastinating things that really need to get done by spending time on facebook, I got to catch up on my reading, among other things. Speaking of important procrastinated things I finally finished my first college essay, and I'm actually pretty proud of it. I spent some of break shopping, but I didn't buy much. One thing I did get was the first twilight book. I know, I'm one of them now... okay maybe not to that extreme. I'm not a 13 year old girl so obsessed with twilight that I have posters all over my walls, and I'm not going around saying "Omg, Edward Cullen is soooo hot." But I will admit I love the saga. I avoided this being the case, because I didn't want to become part of the cult. Curiosity got the best of me one day. I was at the mall with my friend Barb when I suggested that we see Twilight, I was pretty nonchalant about it, not yet knowing how obsessed with it I would become. So we saw the movie, and I knew that now I had to read the books. One day after Christmas I got the first of the saga called Twilight. When I'm truly interested in a book I tend to lose myself in it. I spent basically the entire day reading it. I was up until 1:30 in the morning, I just had to know what happened next. The next day I read the entire second book online. So in two days I read the first two books. This time I stayed up until 2:30 A.M. And then I began the third book online, unfortunately I had to go to work so I couldn't finish that one. After work I bought the third book, that was last night. I knew I couldn't stay up as late reading this time so I settled on 12:30. I knew I should have gone to bed earlier, probably around 10, but I couldn't resist. I was still reading the book this morning, once on the bus, and then as soon as I got to school. So much for socializing after break. Despite my freakish behavior, I did do "normal" things too. Like I said, I hung out with my friend Barbara at MOA, and my friend Courtney came over too. We had a lot to talk about because I don't even remember the last time we actually hung out. I also hung out with my friend Aaron. His friend Ray, who I happen to have a crush on, was originally going to be coming along too. Aaron knows about the crush and agreed that all of us hanging out together would be fun. I suggested that he come along too because I don't know Ray even yet to feel comfortable with him alone. But like I said, that plan didn't happen. Aaron asked Ray the day of it would work for Ray, Ray said hanging out would be possible after he got off of work... then last minute he had to cancel because his plans changed. He was going to be going out of town the next day, but his ride changed their mind and decided to leave that night. Needless to say I was disappointed. It wound up being a pretty fun night all the same. Aaron and I decided to hang out regardless, and he invited his friend Luke who was going on Military leave the next day. We were chilling around Cafe Latte at first, then because we were antsy while waiting for my ride decided to take a walk. The walk was pretty long and we wound up in front of Kolaski's... only to have to turn all the way back when I realized that my mom might be waiting outside. I called her asking for a ride about an hour ago, and got no response. I attempted calling our house three times in between that hour, because unfortunately she doesn't have a cell phone. Turns out she had come to Cafe Latte, but since she didn't see me there she assumed that I took the bus and she went back home. I called her again, after an hour, this time she picked up. She was furious, but picked me up. Despite the ride situation, we had fun. I was laughing nearly the whole time. And then there was New Years Eve. I hung out with my ex Jake that day. We baked a couple of pumpkin pies. I gave him the CD that I promised to give him for his birthday/christmas (his birthday is April 7th) and he gave me money to buy my birthday/christmas gift (my birthday is September 19th). We went to Chipotle next, and then he took me to work. After work the plan was to have a little shindig at my friend Caitie's new house (she now lives in a Condo by herself), but the other people bailed out. In the end it was just me and Caitie. She didn't have her TV or internet hooked up yet, so we couldn't watch the ball drop. So, instead of our fun plans we watched the entire first season of Laguana Beach, excluding one episode... while saying how lame we were for doing it the majority of the time. I didn't get much sleep that morning because I forgot my pajama's and I don't sleep well in clothes. The next day I was in need of coffee for sure. The rest of break was spent at my dad's place in NE Minneapolis. And that's pretty much it. 

*As you may remember, my goal set for 2009 was learning how to be happy again.