Though today was a very monumental day in history (first black president and all that jazz), it was a very aggravating day for me. Now let me complain to you and tell you why that is :)... Firstly, I went to bed late the night before- after finally finishing one of the two procrastinated papers for Rich. Secondly, this morning when I could/should have been working on either a)blogging or b)working on my other paper for Rich (due later in the day), I instead practiced the song I was PLANNING on singing for Performance Night. I listened to it repeatedly during the hour, that as well as read the lyrics over and over. Then while watching the inauguration, I sang the song over and over in my head, hoping that I would have all of the words memorized by lunch time. The memorization was crucial because of these factors: my make-shift band did not work out, though I still practiced the song we were planning on playing in feeble hope that we would be able to play it still (which is a story in itself)... and so I was left to my own devices, and step one. Over the weekend I also practiced a song to sing a cappella as a plan b, this is the song that I was also working on this A.M. So I spoke with Booker about my plan b, he told me that I could have an auditon during lunch... that never happened, and so Booker told me that my audition would just be at the run through during fifth hour-which cut into my much needed video editing time (I was two days behind seeing that Cadex wasn't here because he got into a car accident O.O), but I saccarficed this because being able to sing at Performance Night was more important to me at the time. As it turns out, this was a mistake. I was nervous during the run through because I was being judged by Booker, would I be deemed worthy? I glanced at the sheet with the lyrics on it because I wasn't confident about singing the right thing, that and I didn't look much at the people in the room. After I sang during 5th hour Booker asked me to stay behind to talk, he said he "didn't think I was quite Performance ready. Blah, blah, next time, blah, blah" Needless to say I was PISSED OFF. I calmly answered "Okay." But inside I was heated. All that work, for nothing! Luckily I was able to ration with myself, I probably wasn't ready and not performing saved me the stress of worrying about how I would perform. That, and I wasn't really angry with Booker or the people that I was collaberating with, I was just upset with the situation. To help myself stew even less I made myself do something productive. I told Booker that since I missed editing my film 5th hour that I would be doing it for his sixth hour painting class. So I was happy that my day wasn't a total loss. If only that weren't the end of the bad day... oh no. I missed the 50 by a second and so I had to take a 16, which is slower so the chances were likely that I would be late to work. And THEN, the stupid fucking bus ate my DAMN buscard!!! Which meant that instead of getting a transfer I would have to use my last two dollars to get on my next bus. It also meant that I would have to pay an additonal 2.25 the next day to school AND explain to Tim what happen. Yes, my day was going just peachy fucking keen. But then, things started to get okay. I made it to work on time, got a couple of pops in my system and began to perk up. As it reached the hour of 8 o'clock my eyes were fixated on the clock. I needed to leave now, I needed to get my paper done. I was in such a hurry that I forgot that I needed by buy razorblades in order to wear the outfit that I was planning on wearing for the dance performance... so now I of course need to think of something completely different to wear, but that is so the least of my worries... Then after work I managed the unbelievable feet of finishing the other paper for Rich and then emailing it to him. I really hope that he accepts it at this late of an hour because it was really time consuming!!! Whew, what a long day. I appologize for this rant, esspecially the vile language haha... but sometimes it just feels good to write in such a manner.