college and the future

Seeing that my main focus right now is applying to colleges and my future in general, I thought that would be the best thing for me to blog about. Some thoughts-
-The future scares me.
-I've been avoiding applying to schools. Do I really want to go to any of them?
-I've decided to apply to these schools: Alberta College of Art+Design, Minneapolis College of Art and Design, The University of Minnnesota, and Columbia. All of which have a certain appeal. Making the decision to take action took some of the anxiety off, and it will give me greater peace of mind to have it done.
-I considered taking a year off to travel Europe, that's probably irrational, but it gave me the deepest sense of calm for a while.
-If I decide not to go to college right away (because I'll go eventually I'm sure), I might live in California for awhile.
-Deadlines are quickly approaching and that makes me really nervous.
-One of the reasons I want to go to college is because I don't want to wind up like my parents...

These thoughts are the type of thing that are constantly circling in my head right now.